Saturday, March 5, 2022

Poem: "A Lily Among Thorns"

Written in 2013 for a woman with whom I was in love. Though I long ago fell (or grew) out of love with her, when I rediscovered this piece of strained melodramatics I realized there are bits of this and that, that I rather like. Except, I hope never to feel "unworthy" to talk to someone - anyone - ever again.

 

“A Lily Among Thorns”

In a dream,

as all poems begin it seems,

I saw chains on every brilliant thought,

every one-liner and wonderful remark

I saw men and women who had made me laugh,

made me stop to think 

like Augustus Caesar in the dark –

Their memory all bound to some ugly thing,

some kind of hackneyed pain


The kind that surrounds a joke

told by someone lost but not forgotten,

the kind found in sappy poems full of hope

I saw Heath Ledger being carried to eternity

I saw Lenin and Lennon scoffing

I saw John Belushi fading away

down in West L.A.


I tried to awake, I wanted to go home

but somebody grabbed my arm –

Belushi himself in a bumble-bee robe


I spoke to Belushi’s ghost,

“Belushi, you’ve shown me only malice,

greed, apathy!

Depressing haunts swirling around what

should cheer me most

Belushi I beg you, show me some tenderness,

some depth of feeling,

preferably in green or blue eyes

with no venom in its smile

and no vengeance in its wit,

a beautiful mind with no bitterness or guile”


He raised his brow and pointed to you,

like Gettysburg eclipsing Waterloo,

like a sudden burst of laughter from those

who mourn,

like a lily among the thorns

You’re a duchess with hands covered in paint

You’re a bringer of good tidings 

from days of yore,

a contrast to my raving complaint

You’re the one in the bookstore,

un-abridging the abridged Gaston Leroux

And I’m leafing through Louis L'Amour,

unworthy to say Wordsworth to you


from the book Amen, Bad Luck To You